I'm Finally Seeing Myself! Yay! Finally!!!

This will be a shorter post than normal...but I just had to say something. Something to remind myself of what I have now seen and realized....I haven't been seeing myself.

I HAVEN'T BEEN SEEING MYSELF!

I looked in the mirror and I saw myself today! All this time I've spent so lost in myself...in the depths of my own despair...and I haven't been seeing myself! How many years have I been like this? Why haven't my friends been saying anything? Have my friends never seen me either, and thus don't know that they should be saying something? I'm so excited about everything now! I found myself again! And all I had to do was look in a bloody mirror!

Indeed...it was a bit of a paradoxical situation...but I saw myself...I saw myself seeing myself! I saw what other people see and I realized that all I've been telling myself is a lie! I'm sorry to myself. I really am!

Why did it take me so long to see this? To see myself the way the world sees me, and should see me, and how I really should be?

Why? I can't believe I lost myself that long!

I've finally seen myself! :D Yes. I am now finally happy!

In myself, anyway. Which is what I've always been missing to do everything else! Now! Now the adventure begins, my beautiful, pretty, wonderful, amazing, people!

See yourself! It's the best thing I ever did!

Easier said than done, I know! But just try!

~A Little Lonely Wisdom

"I don't know if I continue, even today, always liking myself. But what I learned to do many years ago was to forgive myself. It is very important for every human being to forgive herself or himself because if you live, you will make mistakes. It is inevitable. But once you do and you see the mistake, then you forgive yourself and say, "well, if I'd known better I'd have done better," that's all. So you say to people who you think you may have injured, "I'm sorry." If we all hold on to the mistake, we can't see our own glory in the mirror because we have the mistake between our faces and the mirror; we can't see what we're capable of being. you can ask forgiveness of others, but in the end the real forgiveness is in one's own self. I think that young men and women are so caught by the way they see themselves. now mind you. When a larger society sees them as unattractive, as threats, as too black, or too white, or too poor, or too fat, or too thin, or too sexual, that's rough. But you can overcome that. The real difficulty is to overcome how you think about yourself. If we don't have that, we never grow, we never learn, and, sure as hell, we should never teach."

From the lips of my beloved Maya Angelou.